You - Steezefield

Do Not Resuscitate

I dreamed that you were in love with me but you got your feelings hurt very badly because I was never there. You told me I was always looking for safe zones and would never bring myself to fall for you because you didn't really perfectly fit the qualities of a committed boyfriend. Then I told you I was cold and you gave me your jacket but it was snowing and we were waiting for the cab we called and it took us so long in the cold, you were trembling in the snow and I said you should have your jacket back but you insisted on me keeping it, "I really don't understand why I would even give you my jacket to be honest." It sounded so familiar that I was about to be awaken from my dream to reality but I didn't want to lose you, I kept chanting to myself in my dream, "do not resuscitate". You wrapped your right arm around me and patted lightly on my head, just like what you'd always do when it was drizzling in Summer, so that the flakes only landed on the back of your palm. "What exactly does a shelter mean to you?" You asked me. "It's a feeling I'd never have for anyone else," I said, "and it's a feeling I have for you that would never change." You didn't say anything but the disappointment in your eyes gave you away. I tried to ignore the twirl in my heart but it wouldn't go away. I woke up to the sound of my Mom closing my bedroom door loudly, and I woke up to several messages you left me when I was asleep last night, "hey wuu2? // i stopped seeing the girl i told u abt // we just didnt click lol // nvm // night // *sends screenie of a song* listen to this".

Weird dream.